Waiting for Death or Deliverance
“When once a man is launched on such an adventure as this, he must bid farewell to hopes and fears, otherwise death or deliverance will both come too late to save his honor and his reason.” – C.S. Lewis, The Silver Chair
… this life is such an adventure.
Our hopes and fears are almost always based on a hypothetical future state. They exist in us because we speculate about what will be. They have a way of holding us in a passive position while we wait for their consummation in an imaginary death or deliverance… the kind of death or deliverance that arrives at your door. These may come late or they may not come at all, either way you’ll be waiting.
An important point that is easy to forget… this adventure is about your heart. It’s not the possibility of a future state that hangs in the balance, it’s the possibility of a future person. Death and deliverance don’t show up at your door. They come about inside of you… on the battlefield of your heart. So you see, if you sit with your hope or fear and wait for it to play out, you will lose your mind and possibly your honor, but you will definitely lose your heart. Deliverance and death hang on a decision that only you can make, and a decision is all it takes. You are the reason for hope and it is substance the moment you choose deliverance. The choice to lay hold of it is made by faith which is the substance of things hoped for. You are not a spectator here. Choose life… so that there might be life!